October 13, 2010

Right Track?

Since I stood in front of the class to present my mood boards was a total failure, I've begun to wonder if I'm on the right track as an artist, and as a thesis presenter.
What am I trying to accomplish?

I want to make these large dolls in varying "typical" body shapes because they started out as a personal project for me. I wanted to do these for myself. Why?
I don't really know. A lot of my work could be considered subconcious. I make art, and then look at it and say "that has a lot of symbolism that I wasn't aware of while I was painting".
So I'm thinking of why I want to do this thesis.

It isn't to bring awareness of body issues. Women are very aware of this issue. The media is very aware of this issue. I'm not trying to educate with my thesis. I guess that I'm trying to share the feelings women have that have these body shapes. I'm not trying to represent the empowered woman, because honestly, I'm not empowered, as are very few of the women I know.
Don't get me wrong, I know a lot of women who are of the proud belief that "I'm fat, love me as I am" and while I GREATLY admire these women, I am not one of them, and I cannot relate.
This backs up the multi-million dollar weight loss surgery industry. In my opinion, (as someone who would qualify for WLS) there are some instances where WLS has saved lives, but this is not a blog about my opinions on WLS.
I'm really struggling with the "point" of my thesis. I feel like it's staring me in the face, but I'm not getting it.

I love the ads "targeted" to me!
My own struggles of body image by depicting women in various body shapes? No... yes. I can't speak for everyone. Maybe I should do research on more womens issues. *shrug*


  1. I've been thin, I've been morbidly obese. Right now I'm almost 60 pounds into a 100 pound weight loss goal. I sure know the issues, and I've read a lot of books. I also wrote and published a master's thesis (different topic). Feel free to talk to me any time about ideas.

  2. That's fantastic. I'd love to have opinions and lessons from someone who's been there!